Month: December 2012

Liberi ad esse

Reflection is always something that I do on New Years eve. I will admit I usually cry on New Years. I just find it so surreal at times of all the things that I’ve come through in my life. 

The me of 10 years ago would have never recognized the person I am today.
I’ve shed not only weight over the years, but I’ve also shed self. Isn’t that simply delicious? I’ve embraced this new self that could have never survived 10 years ago, but now I flow so effortlessly in that. My outlook and things I have come to dance with in life are just so fascinating. 
Don’t you feel that as well? I know it’s hard when we concentrate on the things we still don’t have or things or people we’ve lost, but we can choose to see things in a different way. 
I can concentrate on the fact that I still haven’t found the love of my lifetime yet, OR I can choose to be excited that I’m going on this journey that on every bend anticipate that she will manifest. 
It’s a choice as to how we address the things in our life. It really does come down to choice. and I choose to be free. “Liberi ad Esse”. 
As you all know I’ve chosen to make fear my bitch and there are just a few things that I still consider that I must overcome, but I will confess, no matter how many times I get shook up and knocked down by those things I will not stay long for long and then I frame it with an aha moment. 
So  I invite you to join me in anticipating that 2013 will be a year of unprecedented growth and amazing awe inspiring magic! 
Yes MAGIC. 2013 is gonna’ be magical. 
When we create our day and say our prayers and meditate, always place it in the hands out side of yours so that we are AMAZED at what can happen. Holding the goal in our minds but letting go of the “HOW”. That’s when it gets fun, that’s when it gets amazing. That’s the back yard the universe. The universe rolls up it’s sleeves and says’s “watch me work”.
May the Magic of the How always amaze you and may you always choose to experience life in the best possible way. 
With Love always

A Poem: LOVE

Love When I close my eyes I see you, though I have not seen you

When I take a breath I breathe you in, even though you are not there

This is a message I share with only you and the universe:

  • Even though you’re with another, your mine
  • Even though your somewhere else, your here with me
  • Even though you may not know it, I am yours

You see –

This love between you and I, it defies understanding

This affection transcends reality

The truth is; you and I have been together for ever since before we met


When the world was nothing but a stray thought we were intertwined In and out of time out and in reality

So now why are we not together?

Surely you understand, you’re being prepared just for me, formed in the likeness of my mind, molded in the desire of my heart

But once your process is complete, then we will be together

Until then, I wait. I pray for you, I build myself up I wait for you dear………..

I wait for you……….

  • Be aware of that which you want and peruse it
  • Be a co-creator of your world as I have been of mine
  • Be that which you need to be in order for you to be here

For here is where I am waiting for you

Not in a place in time, nor a place on earth, but on the higher level of consciousness

Rise from where you are so we can elevate higher together

Where our infinite affinity can grow and prosper

Can’t you see your flaws are perfect in every detail?

Your figure is one of a beautiful silhouette in the form of the guitar

Like the guitar as you walk it fills the air with the melody of sensuality and virtue

Your eye dreams, Pierce my soul with every glance

Your lips so rosy and sweet like the ripe melon or honey dew perfect for plucking

O how I wish I was the air So that I may brush up against you and you may feel the force of love that I may conjure

O how jealous of the sun and moon am I for they are fortunate to gaze upon your person at all times

For now, thoughts must keep me company.

But hasten your steps towards me Grace of God, for I long to be with you as I was in eternity.


by itonijd

A Poem: Your Type

When you look at me, or when you think of me;

I hear the thoughts that run through your mind?

“I can’t see myself with you” or perhaps “I don’t see you in that way.”

So you brush it off as “Your just not my type!”

While I can understand your hesitance and fear based reaction, and do respect your stance, I simply ask one question:

“How do you know I’m not your type? Is your type not romantic? Is your type not the one who will make you laugh? Is your type not infectious? Is your type not the one that will treat you like a queen? Is your type not the one to cultivate such a deep rooted connection that communication happens in the absence of words? Is your type not the one that finds you utterly beguiling? Is your type not the one that will insist and inspire you to grow? Is your type not the one that will protect you no matter what? Is your type not the one who has and will always have dreams of bettering himself and those around him? Is your type not the one who cares for you more than himself? Is your type not the one that will go out of his way to please you?

Or perhaps; Your type isn’t the only one that will take you into account during a decision that will affect both of you? Your type isn’t the one that is wise beyond his years? Your type isn’t the one that isn’t steep in the male and female rolls? Your type isn’t the one that just for growths sake, will go against the current of the masses? Your type will not calm you down when you are in a frenzy? Your type will not tell you the truth, even though it hurts? Your type isn’t secure in his own skin? Your type MOST CERTAINLY isn’t Talented? Your type hasn’t had success in his life learning from the failures? Your type obviously doesn’t have a strong deep connection with his family? Your type isn’t intellectual? Your type isn’t worldly? Your type doesn’t strive for the better, larger, bigger, higher, & deeper? Your type wont stimulate every single one of your senses? Your type just doesn’t seem to create romantic situations? Your type doesn’t know much about the REALITY of the spiritual world and the forces at work? Your type doesn’t detest the way religion kills instead of uplifts? Your type isn’t generous? Your type doesn’t have a clean spirit and strong soul? Your type isn’t me?

Judge me by my current circumstance, and your judgment will not stand for current is temporary, but judge me by who I AM and you’ll see eternity………..

Now, that’s my type.

By – itonijd